Feeling low and creeped up upon like monsters lurking in the sewage waiting for me to walk above the gaps in the drains to lunge at me leaving me with nothing but the living lights scared out of me.This dreary weary feeling is so burdening. Idk how to be rid of it to feel normal again. Feels like im walking along the rims of the gates of hell with nothing to pull me back up to earth, much less heaven. Want to feel normal again. These few weeks haven been nothing but feeling internally displaced. Nowhere to be comfortable to lay my head but yet nowhere dangerous enough to be fearful. Shuteye has been increasingly difficult and much harsher than the reality but I control all my dreams, so am I making myself see the harshness that I choose to ignore in reality? So much to think about so much time I can lose